Invisible Son by Kim Johnson
Author:Kim Johnson [Johnson, Kim]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Random House Children's Books
Published: 2023-06-27T00:00:00+00:00
April 30, 2020
Thereâs no wake for Grandpa. No collective mourning. Yet the house overflows with cards, flowers, and meals that leave painful reminders of loss. Each time the doorbell rings, someone scurries away, leaving more. And each time, I beg Grandma J to chase after them, tell them we donât need any more.
âIâve been in their place. They want to help,â she says to my questioning looks.
Itâs only when the house is overflowing with stacks upon stacks that Grandma J doesnât stop me from dumping things in the trash weâll never eat. I have other reasons, though. Dadâs finally recovered, which means heâs coming home to bury Grandpa. And all thatâs piled around us will be too jarring for him to take in at first.
My parentsâ car pulls up in the driveway. They take their time, until Dad locks eyes with me and stands taller. With my parents gone, Iâve been helping Grandma J with a funeral checklist that includes collecting documents, the marriage certificate for Social Security, contacting health insurance, and choosing his casket. Things Iâd rather be shielded of the responsibility for.
From across the grass Sierra watches my parentsâ arrival. Since Grandpaâs passing, I havenât stepped outside beyond going to the Parks & Rec, where I dip to the very bottom of the pool until my lungs feel like theyâll explode. Then I wait even longer, so the red blip of my ankle monitor goes dark and Iâm unseen by the world.
I want to hold Grandpa in this life as long as possible. But the funeral is today, and with Dad back, so is reality.
I back in so Dad doesnât catch us all staring at him at once. He knows why, even though no one will say how we feared weâd lose him, too.
Thereâs an awkward pause, as we figure out how weâll approach social distance guidelines. âIs it okay toââ
Dad hugs me before I can finish. I feel the heaviness in every breath he takes. From being sick to reckoning with Grandpa gone. Healed yet broken.
âIâm proud of you, son,â Dad whispers in my ear.
A prickle of a tear forms, stinging. I cough to let it clear from me.
Since Iâve been back Iâve felt like I wasnât good enough. His greeting now, well, itâs how I wanted to feel when I returned from detention, without the loss.
Dad then wraps arms around Grandma J, and it makes her look so small next to him. Thereâs a silence that feels charged by the long wait for this reunion. Itâs only broken when Grandma J takes a long breath that spins into a wail of sorrow and joy at the same time. I look away as Dad responds, âI know. I know. I know.â
When we take a seat, Mom leans into Dad, leaving me with tear-filled eyes. Mom carries the weight of so much loss and responsibility from nonstop hours at the hospital. The guilt of failing piles on because I canât help ease her burdens.
After some time, our conversations shift to what weâre all here for.
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